Four Agreements - Just a reminder

1. Be Impeccable With Your Word
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

2. Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don't Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.

Setting a good example for children takes all the fun out of middle age.
William Feather

Sitting here in limbo
waiting for the world to fall

Birthday 2007

Proseco Party
in Sun Valley
Ageism to come
lots of real true love
at least ... for the night

tired as a nail banged more than once

Nights and nights in a row of socializing and partying and more to come. I'm unable to say no. The Motivator does so much for me, so does the Princess. So when they ask--and sometimes it's more of a command--I must go. Should I refuse? I could put my family first, when its really my health, and in most ways I do. But I long for change, diversion and meaningful conversations,. so I go and continue being exhausted.
They don't have full time jobs after all.
But doing is more than lack of ability to choose. In fact, I use them because I long to break out and its possible if I catch their coattails I can. It is also to ensure that what I feel--that Quicksilver Girl is fading--is not true.
To wake up my brain I thought of trying out the Shaman and the frog but I have to be invited first. And anyway drugs can be tiring as well.
So I dream of France, write good sentences in my head. Edit everything I see and hear, and brainstorm....
Deliver me inspiration and perseverance.